Gratitude and Rambling
By Renee Bodkin
Gratitude. I still feel compelled to express my gratitude although finding the right words is escaping me. I sit down to write and my mind wanders. My focus is fleeting. I don’t think I was ADHD as a child/teen/young adult – though if this isn’t ADHD (or ADD) I don’t know what this is?! Mommy brain maybe.
My birthday is in four days. My baby’s birthday is in 7 days, Lucian is going to be 10 years old. TEN. Oh my goodness. Where does the time go? My oldest turned 14 on April Fool’s Day. That is crazy. This parenting thing is not for the weak at heart. Parenting a teen is not easy. And my teen, Sebastian, is – for the most part – not bad at all (I work in a high school, I know what I could be dealing with). My teen is mouthy and moody. He is also focused and determined. He is sweet and helpful. He is also obstinate and stubborn. My almost ten year old, Lucian, is testing his limits. He is by all definitions – a TWEEN. He will snuggle with me and in the next instant he will yank away from my hand. He either is best of friends with his brother (Ben not Seb) or NOT. Then there is Ben (who will be 12 in August), he’s smack dab in the middle. Parenting. It is so very rewarding yet so very draining.
I am so very grateful to be their mom! (gosh aren’t they handsome)
Did I mention it’s almost my birthday? Maybe I should link back to my “All I Want For Christmas” blog post. I still *want* the same things. This weekend will be crazy busy. I have Wood Badge training on Saturday ALL DAY LONG. Then on Sunday we are having Lucian’s (and my) family birthday party. I need to shop and clean, when I don’t know. Refer back to my “All I Want For Christmas” blog regarding my cleaning fairy and folding fairy.
I am so grateful for the opportunity to be part of an awesome training staff for Scouting.
I am so grateful to celebrate with family.
Google Keep. I have started using it for list making and keeping me on task. It’s a fantastic app. Is it an app? I can access my lists on my computer and on my phone. I can share a list with others and they can add to the list. It’s helpful. Though my brain keeps bouncing around with things I need to do and things just on my mind.
I am grateful for Google Keep.
I need prayers. For unspoken stressors in my life. I need things to just work – the first time or in this specific case the third time – so it doesn’t waste (anymore of) my and Philip’s time (and cause – anymore – unwanted and unneeded stress).
Grateful for… FAITH that this issue *will* work out – like now would be fantastic.