Strength to Write This
By Renee Bodkin
Not all days are good but there is good in each day.
I have a secret. I yell more than I should. I could make a boatload of excuses – Hello, I have 3 boys who suck the life out of me and my patience goes from plenty to none in a matter of seconds sometimes – but the truth of the matter is that I yell.
So. The truth is out. Now what?
Figure out what causes it (the yelling) and then figure what I can do before I do it (the yelling).
Cause — 3 boys who don’t listen. 3 boys who need to be given directions multiple times. 3 boys who fight and bicker (sometimes what feels like all.day.long). 3 boys.
What can I do?? Gosh if I knew I wouldn’t be writing this.
I thought the first step was putting it out there and identifying it (the yelling thing) as one of my weaknesses. I start each school year discussing strengths and weaknesses with my students explaining that we have to use our strengths and be aware of our weaknesses and know that weaknesses are just things that “need improvement”.
So I figure by identifying this — maybe, just maybe — I would be more aware and work towards improving and decreasing this area of “need”.
I’m grateful today for the strength to identify and share my weakness.
Yep. I yell. And I don’t like it. I don’t like that I speak to my boys like that and I don’t like how I feel when (and after) I yell. It makes me feel bad. All around bad. And quite often it doesn’t necessarily help matters. Please don’t judge. I’m human. And I’m trying to be better. Feedback, advice, and support are appreciated. Heck, you never know… maybe you too are a yeller or maybe you have overcome the yelling thing. None the less – first step was taken – I put it out there. I confessed one of my weaknesses that I am not proud of. Grateful for strength to write this today.